Elegy for Lake Nacogdoches
Nacogdoches, TX Under a cloud-guarded sky, a man lowers a trolling motor in the distance, a faint trill as it coasts along the shores, foam lipping the bow, a wide beam spotlight bobbing over shadows of sandbars stretching beneath the shallow wake. Fish blink through the spotlight’s funnel as the boater tosses glass bottles with white scars from peeled off labels, casting aluminum cans that glisten in the yellow circle atop the water before drifting into darkness. These empties, all he must have consumed during his trip today, buoy up like braille. A single bottle begins its topple like a bobber dipping, then rising again, then gone. Though I know it’s sinking, glugging bubbles as it spins around giant salvinia. In just a few days this fern will double in size, then double again, and again, scrimming the surface with matted leaves. Soon other boaters will cut through this weed and carry clumps of stems and leaves into uninfested waters, ignoring the game warden’s warnings, and the plant will root across those lakes as well. These waters will soon empty of fish searching for any script of sun narrowly splitting the sealed leaf mat. Weevils will ghost through the remains, flickering across the water as small rippled specks. But here, tonight, a snake glides atop the water and arches like a cane in the moon-cast shadow of a branch. Tonight, listening to the rumbles and gurgles of the man speeding back to the ramp, I ask for an hour more before I walk away ensnared in these knots, before this lake clots over, before the wind weaves through this water and stirs the weeds, before it’s shut empty of anything else to grow.
Troy Varvel holds an MFA from Southern Illinois University Carbondale. Runner-up in the Missouri Review’s 2020 Miller Audio Prize in Poetry, his work has appeared in Best New Poets, Dialogist, Iron Horse Literary Review, River Styx, and storySouth, among others. He lives and teaches in the Texas Hill Country.