Photography
Your eye must see a composition or an expression that life itself offers you, and you must know with intuition when to click the camera. – Henri Cartier-Bresson The images I plan to collect are free. Let’s go, you said, when told that never had I walked on a frozen lake. I’m still waiting on the trip— like boiling milk jailed by sheets of fractured glass; I hear the edges you can test with boot, judge with ear to the ice. In a lake-less state back east that rarely drops low for long, my mother kept us within a chain-linked frame. Three youths stalking perimeters, wielding tree branch machine guns. That image is just as clear as this you I see: both shuttered in time. The words I plan to collect are free. Speak them whenever you like. The days to collect are also free, though I’m not sure I’ve enough to afford them. I spent it all accepting what I believed at the time was a gift. Tonight during record colds, I’ll wait for the sound of tires climbing my snow-slick drive, an engine idling and your voice, tinny and eager—I’m here, you’ll say, to make good on every promise. The secret of photography is that images are found and not created. You only need four sides and a flash. But what masters never tell is how sometimes you must wait for what seems forever—before the boy lifts his arms above the horizon, before the woman in your viewfinder steps into a perfect square of light.
Andrew Payton is a writer, learning designer, and climate advocate living in Harrisonburg, Virginia with his partner and children. His work is featured or forthcoming in New Ohio Review, Nimrod, Poet Lore, Alaska Quarterly Review, Rattle, and elsewhere, and won the James Hearst Poetry Prize from North American Review. He is a graduate of the MFA Program in Creative Writing and Environment at Iowa State University and teaches at Eastern Mennonite University.